Here I am again starting over. It has been a struggle and my weight has yo-yoed since having Joshua two years ago. The lowest I have gotten with my weight loss journey thie year was 173. I was so happy at my progress and then somehow I became a stress eating monster and I have reached the highest weight I've ever been in my life (not even during pregnancy did I weigh this much!) .... 190!
I don't know why it's so hard this time. I know what I need to do! I was successful at weight loss before. I had Julia at 28 years olds and gained a significant amount of weight during pregnancy. I had also gained some weight from working at a place that constantly had food catered. I had vowed to lose weight by my 30th birthday. I became a gym rat and a Weight Watchers champion... I lost 30 pounds by my 30th birthday. I was at 130 pounds and was proudly wearinga size 6! Fast forward to losing my grandma unexpectly to cancer and food became my comfort. I probably gained back about 20 pounds. I know by the time I got pregnant with Jr. I was around a size 10-12. I had stopped weighing myself :(
I had vowed to work out and eat healthy so I wouldn't gain too much more weight during pregnancy but that didn't happen. Lots of unforseen circumstances occured and I slipped into a pattern yet again of using food to comfort me. Jr. was born and I started to lose weight only to find out I awas pregnant again when he was around 3 months old! My Josh was due on Jr's first birthday but was born 1 day before my due date. I tried hard to control my weight while pregnant for the 3rd time but it wasn't easy. I hovered in the 180's again. I was too tired to exercise or watch what I was eating. I had a newborn, was pregnant and returned to work to find out my position was deemed redundant and phased out! I had worked at that company for 5 years!
So fast forward to present day... I need to gain control of my weight before it controls me. I need to learn to lean on something other than food to comfort me. I am setting a schedule so I can do daily devotions and prayers. I want to food journal every day to keep track of calories and emotions when eating. I am committing to at least 15 minutes of exercise a day.
I am going to take one step at a time, one day at a time and "one weigh at a time". I am going to set mini goals and achieve mini victories to achieve my overall goal!
This week my goal is healthy eating and food journaling every day( I am tracking using daily plate on livestrong.com). I want to achieve a 2 pound weight loss by Friday!
Monday, April 13, 2009
Startting Over Again- Weight Loss Journey
some thoughts... by Jessie at 11:31 AM
Labels: One Weigh at a Time
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I think you are on the right track. I know what you are talking about. I eat to feel better too. Just take it day by day and remember it took a long time to put it on and it does take time to take it off. Welcome to our group.
I know exactly what you mean! I've just restarted my journey too, and it is so hard. I've been struggling between 155-160 lbs for a whole year. Time to get off my butt, stop making excuses and do something!
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